Just feeling kinda down .
- Maybe i just regret telling you things . & Maybe things arent gonna go back to how they were, and we were just better not being in each others lives. i tried alright, cant say i didn’t . i attended one of my old friend’s lunch / dinner, paid for her, helped her out . i took my ex best friend to eat today , at somona chicken, never eat there . but idunno . just felt weird and different .
- i guess i was just really serious about , i like the people in my life right now . i cant stop drop everything to want to make a old friendship work, if they dont meet me halfway, i get it , everyones busy , including me . i like the people in my life , maybe thats good enough. gaining them again, and the thought of loosing them ? nah , i was left with nothing when i lost my ex best friend . just saying . the one that was still always there when everyone left was my auntie big bird . i just have more faith right now for those who are in my life right now, that they are gonna stay . n thats my , family, 2nd family, & dcp family , n probably church family too . n thats all ya know .. i gained a dcp family, n thats a lot , i got a god mother now , from my confirmation and shes my coach, watching me improve in basketball every day , giving me great advise, always there for me . i got mac , my freaken therapist for sports . n mah sophomore class . especially mah ride or die . ya know .. i think thats jsut all i need . it just hurts inside cause it brings back bad memories . i juts like to forget the past , as in , not talk to anyone , goodnight . now im like jsut hella down .
