Just feeling kinda down .
- Maybe i just regret telling you things . & Maybe things arent gonna go back to how they were, and we were just better not being in each others lives. i tried alright, cant say i didn’t . i attended one of my old friend’s lunch / dinner, paid for her, helped her out . i took my ex best friend to eat today , at somona chicken, never eat there . but idunno . just felt weird and different .
- i guess i was just really serious about , i like the people in my life right now . i cant stop drop everything to want to make a old friendship work, if they dont meet me halfway, i get it , everyones busy , including me . i like the people in my life , maybe thats good enough. gaining them again, and the thought of loosing them ? nah , i was left with nothing when i lost my ex best friend . just saying . the one that was still always there when everyone left was my auntie big bird . i just have more faith right now for those who are in my life right now, that they are gonna stay . n thats my , family, 2nd family, & dcp family , n probably church family too . n thats all ya know .. i gained a dcp family, n thats a lot , i got a god mother now , from my confirmation and shes my coach, watching me improve in basketball every day , giving me great advise, always there for me . i got mac , my freaken therapist for sports . n mah sophomore class . especially mah ride or die . ya know .. i think thats jsut all i need . it just hurts inside cause it brings back bad memories . i juts like to forget the past , as in , not talk to anyone , goodnight . now im like jsut hella down .
OMG,
i love my new phone ;D kin two , kekek .
im good w/ this , dont want any other phone anymore . no data plan required. i love the texting style, its like an iphone, its just all together in one, no more like having hella , n shit , n theres a page for favorites ;D, so cute . n i can listen to it like an ipod , cause kuya has mines -.-, but yeeee. i love love love it ;] \
well, getting my spanish n english papers ready so i can study after i do geo w/ my uncle .
game tomorrow -.-
i like the beat , i wish it had better lyrics tho.
FEB…
JOB HUNTING TIME !
I already applied for Starbucks ,
gonna apply at raging waters today w/ baarlaayz,
printed like fucken 5 copies of jamba juice applications , gonna go deliver sometime this week,
I want..
My dream to come true, I want my wish to come true, I want what I want for my birthday ..
