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Idks . I don’t feel the need to do any of the lovey dubby anymore . & It seems like you don’t either. You can pull me and do the first move now. ima just chill n do what I gotta do .. But we are gonna be in each other’s life, cause I wanted to be a part of ur family, well I already am, & they love me. & no matter what shit goes down w/ us, i still love you at the end of each day, and you are who i think of when i wake up n when i sleep .When the good news happens, i just wanna run n tell you, when the bad news happens , I just want you to be there =/ 

Clearly, there’s nothing to hide from you. You knew and had an idea he was my boyfriend. & you always see our pictures now— I don’t even know HOW. You tell me things that you don’t like, you say you don’t want me taking pictures w/ my  ” friend ” , but you have no good reason . You must see how happy I am with him. Or you just don’t wanna argue with me. I am so happy with him dad. You don’t even know. You want to yell at me, but you have no reason to. It’s not gonna change anything. I guess your learning to accept it. Even though it is hard to tell you in vietnamese, how much I wanna be successful , n my idea’s in life, I guess you get it. So you actually trust me enough. I can see it in you, that you know I’m happy , & that i’m growing up, and that you have been my dad since I was born, that you can trust me . I won’t lie to you . I’m responsible enough . & i’ll always be your little girl dad. Even though sometimes it may not seem like so. But I always will . & I know since Nancee’s grown, then you feel like she left you, & so will I , but I wont . You’ll always be apart of my life dad . I always came home from school to you. & I slept next to you since I was born & i still do . It’s the best place to sleep. & I wish I was younger still . But I pray , that you will accept the many more things that come my way in my life. Just remember, You always have that special spot in my life dad, & in my heart .

Time to reflect no ?

It’s almost the end of the school year .. Man, I don’t think anyone will understand HOW damn hard Sophomore year was for me . But thank you GOD for mainly being there for me every night, guiding me, and listening to my prayers. Watching me cry , and smile .. and be moody . I worked so hard . It’s so hard being that quiet girl at school, I lost my two best friends Sophomore year . It was the hardest thing ever . but I knew I had so much work to do in a year . I got my 3.8 GPA. I hope I can at least get my 3.6 ending it this semester . I came such a long way. I don’t know how Junior year is gonna be . Im still gonna be best friend less — , I want freshmen year back , always . Even thoguh I hated being that new freshmen  , not knowing anything . I would do anything to see my bestfriends everyday. I remember how hard it was not seeing big bird everyday, but i got to see her everyweek , i get to see them every other week . Mac is always here for me, @ breaks . =/

I wonder everyday, i wonder here & there, who will be at my graduation , n how many people i want to be there.. the people in my life right now, this moment, i want them to be there . the people in my life mean so much to me . the people in there right now. i love this bunch. please don’t take them away . give me a reason to be in their lives and give them a reason to be in mines . 

I grow up, that’s probably when i’d actually need to look good n everything . Right now I don’t, unelss I go out . Just focusing on school . 

Someone told me , ” Don’t expect things to happen the way you or someone says ” , I believe & know only God knows how everything starts, and how everything ends. & there’s a reason for everything, the good and bad, you learn from your past whether it was bad or good, and it helps you become a better person to learn from then, and not repeat the mistake— hopeefully . & then he gives you a new challenge because he has faith in you that you can over - come it , and be strong because you made it this far .. So when things get rough, Pray to him, he’ll listen to you, & be there for you. You will feel like he’s right next to you, and then, somehow, it will just feel like his arm is touching you, saying, its all about time . Everything will be fine .